Linkin Park

Waiting for LP's new album with zenlike patience. Release the album already!!! xD

Excerpt from Mad World

And I find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
it's a very, very
Mad World

Just one person in a vast world

Sometimes it's so hard to deal with your own limitation and how far you can extend your hand to reach other people. It's a pain to have to realize that you cannot help a friend in need. I wish I had all the necessities to be able to help everyone I know when they are desperate for support. It's so sad to gaze at yourself and say, 'you can't even help yourself let alone help other people'. It just goes to show how tiny and powerless you really are in this world.

I have a friend who's in desperate need of help right now yet I cannot lend her any help beside the comforting words and my support. It is hard to know that one of your friends is struggling through life and you can only watch from the side helplessly. This feeling kills me inside and I am unable to accept that this is life. We're all created equal yet not all of us are given the same chance at life. It is sad and depressing but I guess that's reality... and sometimes reality is like a mirror that you just can't break no matter how hard you try.

I hope you hold on my friend. My thoughts are sporatic and I am worried but I will pray for you.

It is hard to find things that are important to you, and even harder to hold onto them. Sometimes I feel inadequate as if I lack the ability to protect the important things in my life. I am unable to confide in myself the confidence to withstand the fear of loss. It is this feeling that in my weakest moment I become inferior to everyone else. I lose confidence in myself and in my ability to carry out the necessary actions. I hate this feeling and I often feel it when I am depressed......

My life is in turmoil right now. I feel lost like a wooden board drifting hopelessly across the ocean with no direction or destination.